I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately, and I found that my heart is very indecisive. Some days I want nothing more than to just run and not stop until I no longer know where I am and I'm completely alone, with no one to bother me. I want to lose myself and not care. Other days I hope nothing will change and that these small perfect moments would last always. I don't know what I want. Do I  want to be wild and fierce like a storm or monotonous and unchanging like the tide? Everyone says follow your heart, but what do you do when you heart is conflicted?